aughghghg i made a section specifically for me to be obnoxious XP poopooo pee im not writing anything in yet, you see... thoughts come naturally, and as of the moment i can only think of how fun it must be watching paint dry on a wall. My thoughts can be very disorientating sometimes and writing them down help me organize them. And before you ask, yes, I do keep notes on my notes app as well as on paper, but I want to experience how writing a bloggy must've been like. I mean people still do that but i kinda want to do it the old fashion way... whole website and all. There probably would'nt be anything that interesting here, or maybe there wil but that all depends on what I'll feel like yapping about. Expect some typos and errors, I'm ashamed to admit this but I'm a VERY bad keyboard typer, half of the time I don't think I'm writing the correct words right. Well, anyway that's about it, I wrote something even though I said I would'nt. LOL
ps. its a nightmare to code ( still have no idea what im doing)
ENTRY 1
4/8/2024
I have a sore in my mouth and It hurts like hell. It torments me, everytime i get a giggle from seeing a screaming bald man, its always there to hit me with an agonizing sting. I couldnt even eat properly! everytime my food makes contact the sting of dicomfort brings me sloppy, drooling and dropping my food like some sort of animal. Waking up to it in the moring is sickening, days of agony waking up finding my lips dry and sticking to my braced teeth.It makes me feel like some sort of mummified corpse waking up from its sleep. Good god, the pain gnaws at me, it aches, it itches, its urging me to rip my flesh clean off my face. A soloution to this issue (which ive been relying on for years) is baking soda, just a tiny bit of it on the surface of the sore and it'll go away. The pain though, its like the usual but increased in intensity and you can feel the hairs on your skin rise as your whole body writhes in pure unfiltered pain. I tried it, but to my horror it did'nt solve the issue i've kept going, and going, and going until I was on the verge of passing out, my attempts were futile... drooling on the on the floor desparate for someone or something to rid out of my misery . Is this perhaps repentance for all the sins ive commited? It must be so... currently its still there, showing no signs of healing or improving. I ache.